I am making my debut blog from this smart device. Phew. Having a laptop itself was a big thing. Now I got this device. Have grown attached to this mean beast since I got it.
Did the essentials with it. I jb Ed it. Somebody asked me thousand rupees and channel nine asked five hundred. I wondered what a highway robbery this is. Also, they are just using somebody else’s s/w and not even there’s. They act as if they sweat it out and doing a value added service to us. Then world works this wAy.
Now that I have this mean machine I installed Twitter , facebook , wordpress . Noteable ones though. I enjoyed playing bowling, tt, asphalt car race which I downloaded for free from app store. Yes. I got apple account activated fir the same. I don’t know how it recognized without me giving any credit card details. But it happened.
Now the actual blog. People across the globe are doing some awesome stuff.bro is playing around with unity and some game development. Awesome cool stuff.
What is stopping me from doing something cool? Why do I get hung upwith certain things? Is it me who complicate things or it gets complicated?
Why is everything a big deal with me? Why do I take so much time to decide and inspire and push myself so much to do certain things?
I am devoid of motivation. I need something kick ass in life. My predicament originates from the fact that I have lot of interests. I am equally bad at almost everything. My mind tricks me by giving many options.
Taking a call and moving on seems to be easier than done. Life after college is a question mark to others! But for me, during college what is this life feeling! Ya I suck at XML stuff but do I have to learn it in so much detail that it shows on my marks card? That was an example.
The misery of facing exams will continue for one more year. Some rule in acing exams while I continue to be forced to sit int ac less class rooms and waiting to be done with this cruel c g p a thing!
Instead of doing my confidence good this cgpa has worsened it! First time in my life dwelling in the abyss of the class ranking. I don’t actually care for the cosmetic look of my marks card.
While on this, I was introspecting what is it that is stopping me from doing good? This post looks like a loser post but it’s ok i don’t feel embarrassed!
The answer what I always get frommyself is there is some apprehension in me. That could be too much of expectation. Innocence and humility is lost of a student. The wounds of keane still gives nightmares.
Such a pessimistic blog! I can go on ranting about this. But this kind of blogging will neither get me audience or improve my report writing skills or improve my market!
I will have to go to iiit b on Monday and ask how I can revive myself ams my product. Should I diversify myself or go regional or make some actor advertise for me or partner with somebody? Or should I send an abstract of myself for free to distributors? What about risk management? Profit margin? With this exercise will my yo y increase? My stage fear has to go first.
Iiit answer me and guide me this summer for I am lost in the jungles of electroniccity!
